第14章 寂静的雪野杰克·伦敦 (3)
And men who have shared their bed with death know when the call is sounded. Mason was terribly crushed. The most cursory examination revealed it.
His right arm, leg, and back were broken; his limbs were paralyzed from the hips; and the likelihood of internal injuries was large. An occasional moan was his only sign of life.
No hope; nothing to be done. The pitiless night crept slowly by-Ruth’s portion, the despairing stoicism of her race, and Malemute Kid adding new lines to his face of bronze.
In fact, Mason suffered least of all, for he spent his time in eastern Tennessee, in the Great Smoky Mountains, living over the scenes of his childhood. And most pathetic was the melody of his long-forgotten Southern vernacular, as he raved of swimming holes and coon hunts and watermelon raids. It was as Greek to Ruth, but the Kid understood and felt-felt as only one can feel who has been shut out for years from all that civilization means.
Morning brought consciousness to the stricken man, and Malemute Kid bent closer to catch his whispers.
You remember when we foregathered on the Tanana, four years come next ice run？ I didn’t care so much for her then. It was more like she was pretty, and there was a smack of excitement about it, I think. But I’ve know, I’ve come to think a heap of her. She’s been a good wife to me, always at my shoulder in the pinch. And when it comes to trading, you know there isn’t her equal. D’ye recollect the time she shot the Moosehorn Rapids to pull you and me off that rock, the bullets whipping the water like hailstones？— and the time of the famine at Nuklukyeto？-when she raced the ice run to bring the news？
Yes, she’s been a good wife to me, better’n that other one. Didn’t know I’d been there？
Never told you, eh？ Well, I tried it once, down in the States. That’s why I’m here. Been raised together, too. I came away to give her a chance for divorce. She got it.
But that’s got nothing to do with Ruth. I had thought of cleaning up and pulling for the Outside next year-her and I-but it’s too late. Don’t send her back to her people, Kid. It’s beastly hard for a woman to go back. Think of it！-nearly four years on our bacon and beans and flour and dried fruit, and then to go back to her fish and caribou. It’s not good for her to have tried our ways, to come to know they’re better’n her people’s, and then return to them. Take care of her, Kidwhy don’t you-but no, you always fought shy of them-and you never told me why you came to this country. Be kind to her, and send her back to the States as soon as you can. But fix it so she can come back-liable to get homesick, you know.
And the youngster-it’s drawn us closer, Kid. I only hope it is a boy. Think of it！-flesh of my flesh, Kid. He mustn’t stop in this country. And if it’s a girl, why, she can’t. Sell my furs; they’ll fetch at least five thousand, and I’ve got as much more with the company. And handle my interests with yours. I think that bench claim will show up. See that he gets a good schooling; and Kid, above all, don’t let him come back. This country was not made for white men.
I’m a gone man, Kid. Three or four sleeps at the best. You’ve got to go on. You must go on！ Remember, it’s my wife, it’s my boy-O God！ I hope it’s a boy！ You can’t stay by me-and I charge you, a dying man, to pull on.’
Give me three days,’ pleaded Malemute Kid. ’You may change for the better; something may turn up.’
No.’
Just three days.’
You must pull on.’
Two days.’
It’s my wife and my boy, Kid. You would not ask it.’
One day.’
No, no！ I charge-’
Only one day. We can shave it through on the grub, and I might knock over a moose.’
No-all right; one day, but not a minute more. And, Kid, don’t-don’t leave me to face it alone. Just a shot, one pull on the trigger. You understand. Think of it！ Think of it！ Flesh of my flesh, and I’ll never live to see him！
Send Ruth here. I want to say good-by and tell her that she must think of the boy and not wait till I’m dead. She might refuse to go with you if I didn’t. Goodby, old man; good-by.
Kid！ I say-a-sink a hole above the pup, next to the slide. I panned out forty cents on my shovel there.
And, Kid！’ He stooped lower to catch the last faint words, the dying man’s surrender of his pride. ’I’m sorry-for-you know-Carmen.’ Leaving the girl crying softly over her man, Malemute Kid slipped into his parka and snowshoes, tucked his rifle under his arm, and crept away into the forest. He was no tyro in the stern sorrows of the Northland, but never had he faced so stiff a problem as this. In the abstract, it was a plain, mathematical propositionthree possible lives as against one doomed one. But now he hesitated. For five years, shoulder to shoulder, on the rivers and trails, in the camps and mines, facing death by field and flood and famine, had they knitted the bonds of their comradeship. So close was the tie that he had often been conscious of a vague jealousy of Ruth, from the first time she had come between. And now it must be severed by his own hand.